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Life After C. diff: Ricky S.

Guest blog post written by Ricky S. on October 2016

Ricky S.

Since overcoming C. diff, my life has changed immensely. I never thought that I’d recover or live a normal life again. If it weren’t for the positivity surrounding me, I do not think I ever would have bounced back the way I have.

I think the most difficult part of living with C. diff was feeling suffocated. I felt confined when I was sick, and I was slowly becoming depressed and discouraged. I literally could not leave the house without panicking or worrying about what I would do if I couldn’t find an available bathroom. I used to see pictures of my friends all over social media where they were outdoors and in public-hiking, travelling, going to dinner-simple things that other people take for granted when they have their health. I wanted to be like my friends. I wanted to be healthy. I just wanted to have my life back.

After undergoing a Fecal Microbiota Transplant (FMT) in my own home, I immediately saw results. I was not, however, completely free of C. diff’s symptoms and I still felt the awful panic when I ventured out of my home. I took many tests after my FMT to see if I still had C. diff, and all of these tests came back negative. Why was I having these horrible symptoms? I asked my doctor many times, and I always got the same answer: My gut was damaged and needed time to heal. I felt so discouraged and I didn’t know what to do. I sought the help of one more person, a holistic doctor that worked out of Los Angeles who had come very highly recommended. This doctor’s advice was clear: stay positive and relax. The gut and the mind are connected, immensely, and she told me that I was literally making myself sick. Was it really that simple? Honestly, it was.

Over the past few years, I have learned not to let my mind control my gut. This lesson has changed my life completely, and has given me a whole new perspective on my illness.

I no longer feel suffocated. Since overcoming my fears, I have become one of those people in the pictures I used to look at. I have hiked all over, traveled to Europe and South America, and recently graduated with both my Bachelor’s and my Master’s degrees from California State University Long Beach. I used to view my illness as a hindrance—which it certainly was at the time—but now I actually look at my illness as the motivator to propel me forward. When I had C. diff, I used to despise explaining what it was to people. Nowadays, I am an open book about C. diff and how it has affected my life and the lives of others. I want to help people and propel them forward as well. No one should ever have to feel the way that I, and so many others, have felt when battling C. diff. There is help out there in the world and there are people who want to listen to your story. I know it’s much easier said than done, but it’s possible. C. diff was not the end-all for me and it doesn’t have to be for you either.

Stay positive, stay focused, and do not ever lose yourself.

This is Ricky’s updated story about life after overcoming C.diff. You can read Ricky’s original story here. 


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